The Flood Gates Have Opened

It started yesterday when Henry blew out the candles of his 4th birthday cake and hasn't stopped!  I can't control myself!  Today, I decided to add songs about having a baby to my blog and when I came to "Things We've Handed Down" (see side panel for songs), I started bawling and I can't get it together!  Gotta love these hormones!!!

Ever since I was a little girl, the only sure dream I've had is that I wanted to marry a wonderful man and become a mother.  Sure I would have my days of wanting to be a teacher or a marine biologist or whatever else, but the one thing that stuck was this.  And now it's happening.  It's actually happening.

I've been thinking a lot today about my Mama.  She's been gone now for over 17 years.  Of course I miss her all the time, but there are times in life when it hits me like a ton of bricks.  Today is one of those days.  The older I get, the more I see not only what Shelby and I have missed by not having her here, but what she has missed and will miss.  I wish more than anything that I could have had the chance to know her as an adult, because there's just so much an 11 year old girl can't see about her mother.  I would give the world for her to be here during this special time in my life.

But life goes on and I'll just continue to pray that I can be even half the mother she was.  I know she's looking down on me now and is so happy.  She's probably spreading the news to our family and her friends in heaven.  I can hear her laughing now. 

The majority of my tears have been happy tears just experiencing what it feels like to have dreams come true.  I pray that things will continue to go well with this pregnancy and that our baby is healthy and strong.